Monday Magic 11.11

Tomorrow marks four months of this entrepreneurship journey and it is nothing like I thought it would be. I guess maybe I never had any idea of what was to come. So far I’ve bitten off more than I can chew, my ego’s been bruised, I’ve shown up, I’ve allowed myself to be seen, and in turn being vulnerable in a way, but it’s not enough. It’ll never be enough, not in life, not in this, but it will be okay, I guess somewhere along the way I acquired patience somehow.

As we usher in the age of Aquarius, with it we say goodbye to Pluto in my house, and thank god for that! I’m ready to let go of all that no longer serves me for good. To stand so sure in the person I am because of all the work I’ve done. I can almost taste it in the slightly crisp Texas air as I stand on the heels of another year, but something about it all seems so possible, so new, so fresh, and full of opportunity, so full of life. That’s the thing about this journey, it’s pushing me out of my comfort zone, making me confront the work I’ve put in and slowly start flapping my wings after four months of free falling. So what better way than to fail publicly for the world to see right?

With worse tailoring skills than a first year design student I’ve decided to apply to Project Runway. *Cue in the laughter* I’ve spent too much of my life just trying to survive, that I just want to live the rest of my life as happy as I am currently, chasing dreams, dancing in the palm of life’s hand, so what better way than to put myself out there on national television for the plot as they say. Luckily I’m told fortune favors the bold, so boldly into the applications we go!

With two weeks before the deadline, so here’s to hoping one day this will make wonderful lore about how I became a successful designer. I mean can you imagine me being on the show that single handedly kept me out of some of my worst depressive episodes at one of the worst time in my life when I decided to go down the sensible path which in turn was just a detour leading me back to the road I was meant to be on all along. Into the belly of the beast we go!

So if in this new page of life we go, I hope within its pages are the success of my destined path. That within its story is contained more adventure filled pages, of a gorgeous woman succeeding as she dances through life with grace in her confidence, each day filled with more joy than the last. The beginning days of a young legend in the making. Here’s to me! May life continue to love me to the degree it has to now.

XOXO,

Alvarado